You see those wall signs everywhere. Most of the time you just pass them right by. One day, those words became more relevant for me than any three words in the life I had led up to that point. “What was I doing with my life?”
It was a tough question for me to answer, and as a result the universe decided to set me up with some life lessons that turned my entire world upside down. It was sort of a very loud “You are going to sink, or you are going to swim.” I chose to swim. And, I swam hard and fast. All I wanted to do was get to the other side.
I was married for nearly 10 years when my then husband told me he wanted to be with other people. And, he had the balls to tell me that “if we stay together, I want to sleep with other women”. That was not a marriage to me, so less than 24 hours later he had signed an apartment lease and moved out, leaving me behind with an 18-month old, a giant house, and no job. I had been laid off a few months prior. How is that for the universe telling me it’s time for a change? The one thing I knew is that I had a choice. I could feel sorry for myself and completely fall apart with grief, anger, fear… and all those other emotions that run through to your soul in times like these, or I could make a plan for the future. The future I wanted to make for my son and me. So, that’s what I did.
I decided to “live”. After some time passed, I learned how to “laugh”. I laughed at the dumb things that hung me up from moving forward some days. My mother always told me, “this too shall pass”. And, guess what…. it does. Sometimes it takes a little longer than I like, but it passes. The “love” part I am still working on, but honestly in the four and half years since the “stuff hit the fan”, I have learned to love myself. And, along the way I discovered that I wasn’t the only one having this problem.
I am writing this because it was an important turning point in my life. It was the day I woke up and decided to start “being in the present” and looking forward to a better future. My expectation with this blog is to share the tools I used to “shift” my life from being full of problems… to being full of opportunities. It may sound like just words to you, but changing your thoughts and shifting your perspective of any situation can have an amazingly powerful impact on how you live your life.
I look forward to sharing my stories with you. I told my high school english teacher I would write about my life one day. He asked me why anyone would want to read about my experiences. You know, I think I finally have the answer. If even ten of my words resonate with you, and I can help you make a positive change in your life, then I am completely fulfilled.
Everyone deserves to be happy, and you have all of the power inside of you to make it happen for you.
Love and Light,