Destiny. Purpose. Life path. Can you tell what’s been on my mind? Last week I was talking to my, um, well, we’ll just call her my “adviser” for the sake of argument. I call her when I need some clarity on issues that are too fuzzy for me to straighten out alone or when I need and want what I call “life counseling”. While we were talking she reprimanded me for running away from my true calling in life. She’s not the first person to do this or to declare what my true calling is either! For more than a decade I have been told by friends, family members, strangers, employers and my, um, “life counselors” alike about my divine purpose or life path.
I’ve spent the better part of the last week in deep introspection. What’s holding me back? I mean, I know these folks are all right! I want to go forward on the path. I’m excited and I’m fired up to burst out there yet my feet have been pretty well cemented in place. Hmmm… why? Is it the fear of failure? Fear of success? Fear of losing friends and being judged? Fear that the sky will fall? Fear of embarrassment? Fear of walking off a cliff? Fear of birds falling out of thin air? Good grief! Ridiculous? Yes, a bit! The more time I spent in my quiet, alone space that I call my head the more I realized that my reluctance to move forward is all about fear. The crazy thing is that most of my fears are irrational or frankly, non-applicable!
I finally deduced that not a single one of my fears were really legitimate. Failure… there is no failure! Each experience is a learning experience that will only guide me and give me practice for my next experience. Success… the success part of this is frankly just a given. The success will be the completion and the feeling of knowing that I fulfilled my purpose! Losing friends and judgment… hmmm… as hard as this is to say, who cares? Not every friend was meant to be a life, long friend. Some have been put in our path for temporary seasons and others for life. Only time will help me differentiate between the two. The sky falling… well, it doesn’t look any closer today than it did yesterday so I’m gonna assume that I’m ok on this one. Fear of embarrassment… look, I don’t have to follow my life path to be embarrassed; I accomplish this each day without much help. Today for example, I was volunteering at my son’s school and felt a bulge in the leg of my pants. I reached up pants expecting to pull out a dryer sheet and low and behold it was a pair of my panties. Yup! That’s right! I was walking around with underwear stuck in the leg of my pants and then was left holding them in my hand in front of a bunch of kids. Perfect! Walking off a cliff… after all of these years of hiking in the mountains, I’m pretty sure I can stay on the carved path without much risk! And finally, the birds… well aside from the crazy birds that hit my back windows, I haven’t seen any drop from the sky recently, so again, I’m gonna put my money on the fact that I’m pretty safe!
My path has been laid out. God, the Universe, my angels… well, they, along with me long ago, have laid this out in front of me. It is my purpose. So what is there to be afraid of then? I was talking to my husband about all of this and he looked at me and said that everyone else knows this about me and knows about my purpose. He asked me why I keep insisting upon giving the universe the finger. Yes, he was referring to the middle finger, the bird, the big flip off! Oh my husband of great wisdom, words and advice! That’s why I love him so much. He’s never afraid to tell me exactly what I need to hear in the exact terms that I need to hear it in!
With that, I have declared today that my middle finger is officially holstered! It is down and it will remain pocketed! I know my path. I know that God, the Universe and my Angels have big plans for me and like my mom says, there is nothing to fear but fear itself. So, I’m gonna put some Chris Tomlin on and I will sing loud and sing proud along with him…
Our God is greater, our God is stronger
God You are higher than any other
Our God is Healer, awesome in power
Our God, Our God…
And if Our God is for us, then who could ever stop us
And if our God is with us, then what can stand against?
With Love and Gratitude,